Because I am possibly the most annoying person on Myspace

I am the annoying person who posts a bulletin a few times a week. Usually, they are those lame surveys that no one really reads, they just do them because they're completely bored and don't have better things to do. As I was filling out a bulletin survey today, one of the questions read:

Who do you stalk on MySpace?

Now, I don't seriously stalk anyone on Myspace. I started it to find people from high school that I was friends with, but when it comes down to it, the only friend I consider as a high school friend is Sona. Most of the people on my list are people I did indeed go to high school with, but I didn't know them well enough to call them a friend. I don't take the title "friend" lightly. Maybe I'm intense, but all of my friends have the potential to easily be a best friend; I don't count aquaintances as friends.

Since I joined Myspace, I've gotten to know a lot of people I never gave a thought to in high school. A few of them said they were afraid of me, I can't blame them. I mean, I'm the same kid who purposefully flung my locker open at the perfect time to ram the corner of it into someone's head, essentially cutting open their forehead. "Oh, that's why you were almost expelled?" No, it's one of the many instances my intensity pushed it's way onto another person. One of the many instances that put me in an intervention with the vp and principal, police guy, etc. To put it mildy, I wasn't the most congenial of sorts.

My answer to that useless bulletin? It's nothing monumental or life inspiring:

People that should've been my friends in high school.

Really, I should have been. Instead I moved a couple thousands of miles away to develop friendships afterwards because I'm smart like that.

Still, after I posted that I thought to myself, "I would have never been friends with them either way." Why? I'm the person who finds it much easier to communicate via msn, email, lame myspace comments, facebook pokes and whatever else. I'm awkward in person, I have zero conversation, I have ADD tendencies and I stutter. Yep, I stutter. You'd be surprised to know your "friend" Whitney was in speech therapy in elementary school to stop the st-st-st-stuttering.

Moving away has improved my socialness (is that a word?). I'm working on what happens when I start meeting/reuniting with a lot of these people when I see them next summer. If it worked for Shane and I (meeting online and then in person) then surely it can work for someone who I see as having just friend potential, right? Right? It better, or else I'm stuck in high school.

Ciao.

P.S. I know, skimming through a few posts, that I mispell and my grammer is often horrible. Keep in mind that my corpus collasum is probably about as useful as a male's, so my multi-tasking is bound to be non-existent. I never truly focus 100% on posts through completion; I wish my life was so dull that I didn't have a million things to do. Since I over explained as I often to, the bottom line is I'm making mistakes, but I see no reason to correct them. I won't pretend to be perfect, don't expect me to be.